Change is about improving your forehand.

For as long as I can remember, change has been a good friend to me. The only thing to keep my gears running and the only thing to help me obtain many wonders floating in the world. Change has never been an obstacle for me, but it is, for some of the people around me. Who maybe don't yet know about my constant feelings of swaying between sinking and swimming.

Since eighteen, I've had to make a life for myself. After dropping out of college, punching clocks into jobs that take away my spirit is all I've known. I know I'm smart enough to take on the whole world, if I bet on myself. By simply learning to hold on to the things that I learn and grow with them. Taking chances on those and reporting back to the vast world of my learning. Without having the Feeling that I'm putting relationships at risk to stop me. I want everyone to feel loved, but I also want everyone to eat the fruits of my labor.

I only change, because the stars lying naked in the night sky tell me to do so. The anxieties of walking into a grocery store and not being able to afford what I want. Inflation, my family, life, and my beliefs, all tie into my change. The only thing people see is my knack for constantly having new fixations and obsessions. No one sees the internal being only metamorphosing to newfound fondness for what life is showing me. The patterns I recognize when I'm paying attention bring me blessings of all kinds. The me, who knows it's important to take on lessons and change because it's not about the things we do. It's how we do them whenever we open our eyes on a new day.

I found myself recently wagering on tennis. The way a game so simple can have so many layers. Truly impressed me, which made me go deeper. It has become more than just wagering on matches, it’s been about learning its lessons and how to use it in life. I’m on one side, and the life I want to lead is on another. It’s simply me and myself trying to get the best out of me. Against a world that does not promise. It’s not about the money, life isn’t about money. It’s about sinking or swimming, at twenty-six, I refused to continue to sway, and only swim.